I have to vent/cry a little today:
Last week I got weak and bought a really beautiful
Loewe compact Hammock bag for an incredibly good price (almost 40% off). The bag arrived and it was in great condition and I really loved the look of it. So I tried it on and for some reason I did not find a comfortable way for me to wear it
.
I
love how versatile and creative this bag is, but still in whichever way I styled it, it was either too small for my items, too open to walk with it in crowded areas, too uncomfortable to wear crossbody (strap too short) or too small for my hands for handcarrying it. And I also don't like to carry it on my shoulder as the strap does slip off. Uggggh
! I am not a big/tall person, but this bag seems to be made for very petite women. This caused a lot of frustration on my part. I so wanted this bag to work for me! I feel like this is an amazing bag for instagram photos (I don't do instagram), but it is NOT a very practical bag at all!!!
I was disappointed. Yet still for the past 2 days I argued with myself whether to keep it (because it is so pretty and I love Loewe leather and the color, and the feel of it and the great price etc. etc.). I had 2 sleepless nights even with anxiety attacks because I actually wanted to downsize my collection but yet got another bag that was even with 40% off still very expensive and I actually should use the money for other more useful things....
So this morning with a heavy heart I decided to send it back, because it was the sensible decision and I don't want any more sleepless nights thinking about it. So I packed it up and brought it to the post office. Now I feel relieved somehow but also sad that I had to let it go.
How awful is it that such an item does that with me? I really need to learn from this experience and shift my focus on to more important things and stick to my goal of downsizing.