SakuraSakura, I am sorry to hear you had a breakdown. I am glad you got some help, you mentioned you’re at the hospital. You are courageous and strong. I was going to suggest reaching out to someone you could talk to. Yes, it’s absolutely disappointing the friend you reached out to wasn’t helpful. Try again, pick someone else. You are normal and the way you’re feeling/reacting is normal too. Be gentle to yourself. You never know what’s going on with people’s lives, right now. Lots of people have worries we know nothing about.
MBMJ Natasha is fantastic - I carried mine yesterday when I took my oldest DS to get a covid test. Best wishes for good physical and mental health to everyone.