I am so upset and very disappointed

After waiting for 6 weeks to find out that I wouldn’t be able to get my mini caramel ( dream bag) . I texted and let my SA that I have known for quite sometime super early and she said she will put me on list. I only contacted her because I wanted to get a bag from her . I keep texting her every week to see if any update and what # am on the list etc… She keep telling me she haven’t get lookbook yet but my name will be on the list . 2 days ago I just got closures answer ( well because I asked ) that she only got a few in and I have #8 so she doesn’t think she would be able to get it for me because it doesn’t look those front people would pass and tell me to wait for next season if that color come back again. Like WTH? I was shock!! And thought I should be somewhere on the top of the list. The fact that I am very upset is she didn’t tell me what # I am the list , keep avoiding giving me straight answer , didn’t give me a reason why the hell i am on #8 when I texted her super early and alway reminding her that I want that color , drag me around with her til it is too late to try to get it from other SAs. Now I am start to see reseller jack up the price and was able to get those hard to find bags easily make me more mad .