Day 8 and 9
Had my first aspiration today and took out more in the left than the right. I had the worst cramp ever in my left ankle/ heel region. The pain felt like a burning sensation, combined with a stabbing pain that just keep coming at you without giving u any time to pace out the pain. All i could do was take the pain killer that Dr Park gave after the surgery, curled up in bed and pray that the pain will go away. I couldnt stop my tears from flowing and i felt so vulnerable and helpless at that moment..
After a while, i have decided that laying in bed wasnt going to help with pain. So i struggled to get out of bed and walked around the apartment slowly with my aunt's help and the umbrella. The effect of the pain killer slowly kicked in , and i applied an ice pack onto the left heel area to help numb the pain.
For the first time, I had an emotional talk with aunt in regards to why i decided to undergo such surgery, to voluntarily pay money to have someone cut out 70% of my calves muscle. I explained to her that i was bullied when i was younger because of my calves, how i felt restricted by them in terms of what i can wear, and how i was afriad to go on dates with guys just because i was worry that they will see my calves. I told her that i was sick of looking down at my legs and seeing how muscular they are, and how bothered i was with how my calf always touches each other without me even putting my feet together. Piecing outfits together was always an impossible task, because it is difficult to find an outfit where my calves doesnt look prominent and big. I am sick of all these, and i wanted a change.
On the other hand, i see some girls in this forum, who posted pictures of their calves. Their calves look perfectly fine and not bulky at all. Maybe they arent perfectly straight, or slim, but seriously i dont see any problem with many of them..
The only reason why I am writing my post op journey in this forum, is to hopefully encourage and give some hope to girls who REALLY have bulky, big and muscular calves like me. I am not promoting this surgery to people who really dont need it, and already have nice calves to begin with. This surgery has undeniably taken a huge toll on my physical and most importantly my mental health. It shouldnt be taken lightly, and the price which you have to pay is heavy and long term. For those who are still on the fence about this surgery, if you really have big and muscular calves and have been troubled by it for a very very long time, i encourage you to get through with this surgery. The pain and hardship that you will have to go through, is undeniable. But you will finally be able to have calves that are normal and non-muscular. Finally for the first time in my life, i have a CALVES GAP when i put my feet together. My legs also seem longer and no longer stubby looking.
For those who only seek to achieve a small change, and dont have much problem with their calves to begin first, i strongly urge you to think twice before considering such surgery. Your calves might not even be muscular, hence even after all the pain and money spent in getting this surgery, the changes might not be satisfying and big.
- Julia
Had my first aspiration today and took out more in the left than the right. I had the worst cramp ever in my left ankle/ heel region. The pain felt like a burning sensation, combined with a stabbing pain that just keep coming at you without giving u any time to pace out the pain. All i could do was take the pain killer that Dr Park gave after the surgery, curled up in bed and pray that the pain will go away. I couldnt stop my tears from flowing and i felt so vulnerable and helpless at that moment..
After a while, i have decided that laying in bed wasnt going to help with pain. So i struggled to get out of bed and walked around the apartment slowly with my aunt's help and the umbrella. The effect of the pain killer slowly kicked in , and i applied an ice pack onto the left heel area to help numb the pain.
For the first time, I had an emotional talk with aunt in regards to why i decided to undergo such surgery, to voluntarily pay money to have someone cut out 70% of my calves muscle. I explained to her that i was bullied when i was younger because of my calves, how i felt restricted by them in terms of what i can wear, and how i was afriad to go on dates with guys just because i was worry that they will see my calves. I told her that i was sick of looking down at my legs and seeing how muscular they are, and how bothered i was with how my calf always touches each other without me even putting my feet together. Piecing outfits together was always an impossible task, because it is difficult to find an outfit where my calves doesnt look prominent and big. I am sick of all these, and i wanted a change.
On the other hand, i see some girls in this forum, who posted pictures of their calves. Their calves look perfectly fine and not bulky at all. Maybe they arent perfectly straight, or slim, but seriously i dont see any problem with many of them..
The only reason why I am writing my post op journey in this forum, is to hopefully encourage and give some hope to girls who REALLY have bulky, big and muscular calves like me. I am not promoting this surgery to people who really dont need it, and already have nice calves to begin with. This surgery has undeniably taken a huge toll on my physical and most importantly my mental health. It shouldnt be taken lightly, and the price which you have to pay is heavy and long term. For those who are still on the fence about this surgery, if you really have big and muscular calves and have been troubled by it for a very very long time, i encourage you to get through with this surgery. The pain and hardship that you will have to go through, is undeniable. But you will finally be able to have calves that are normal and non-muscular. Finally for the first time in my life, i have a CALVES GAP when i put my feet together. My legs also seem longer and no longer stubby looking.
For those who only seek to achieve a small change, and dont have much problem with their calves to begin first, i strongly urge you to think twice before considering such surgery. Your calves might not even be muscular, hence even after all the pain and money spent in getting this surgery, the changes might not be satisfying and big.
- Julia