With H, what is meant to be yours will be.
I've gotten an offer because the other client it was going to get offered to was stuck in a different country when the bag came in, and I've missed an offer because I was on a flight and landed to find 10 missed calls from my SA and the bag was already gone. You will find people who turned down bags that didn't match their wishlist in even just one single detail and never looked back, and you will find people who turned down a bag and years later still remember it as the one that got away. You will find people who got their perfect offer after being patient and staying strong and unwavering for their exact requirements, and you will find people who took a risk and absolutely fell in love with a bag they didn't know they wanted.
No use beating yourself up. What's done is done. This bag wasn't meant to be yours.
There will be MANY more to come. It will get easier too. The first one is always hard, just like people tend to remember their first love...
Don't fret - it will be ok. And we will all be here ready to share your happiness & excitement when the one that's meant to be yours comes and I'm sure it won't be too long!!