Thank you for every reply! It's amazing how much you know and all of you have incredible taste!
2 things happened, since my post.
1.) I went to the store, to check out the options. In the end, the speedy 35 looked ridiculous on me. The SA suggested to just check out the Neverfull MM. Funny it is, but I fell in love. So maybe I don't hate totes that much... hahaha
But the second thing broke my heart, and at this time I don't want to buy anything. Not long ago I finally got my first LV piece. It's a vintage pm planner, and I worked really hard to buy even that piece. On Friday I went in and left it there to get it hot stamped, as it is my first piece and want to have to forever and ever to remind me all of the hard work I did.
Today I went in to pick it up. Both SA's were really nice and showed it to me. The hot stamp is in a completely different place and not even straight. I said to them, that this isn't the place I choose. One of them was like " ooh we couldn't do it there so that's why it's in a different part". I didn't say anything in the store, because it's done, there is no going back.
I'm just devastated now... I know it's stupid, and silly and I sound like a b*tch, but they didn't even call me to ask what I want... This is my first piece and dreamed about since I was a child... now it's ruined and don't want to even look at the bag...
So at this point, I decided I don't want to buy anything. I'm so sorry for this long rambling, but nobody understands it, even my boyfriend is saying get over it... Am I really stupid and crazy?