I have not gotten any sleep yet since yesterday. Since my dearest Snowy had passed away.
Snowy is my cat. My 5 year old cat.
My only bundle of joy, my faithful companion, my friend and confidante.
When he fell very sick 2 days ago, I thought it was something he ate. I brought him to the vet and she said it was just a minor stomach allergy.
His condition deteriorated fast and I got so worried, I skipped my meals, my work and stopped my life to nurse him. He wouldn't eat, wouldn't drink and will just look at me with his soulful eyes.
And pray. I prayed to God to make it all better, to make his suffering go. One moment, he looked like he could make it and appeared ok.But suddenly, he was down. Breathing heavily and could barely opened his eyes. I panicked and packed him up to bring him to the hospital asap.
I drove, oh i drove so fast. I beat all the traffic lights, my heart breaking again and again when i heard him moan helplessly beside me. At a traffic light junction, i suddenly heard a loud cough. My hands were trembling, my vision was blurred and quickly scooped Snowy out from his carrier.
He looked at me and then he left me.
He left me just like that. Took his last breath and left me.
He left me in my arms.
I wailed and cried so hard. Cried and tried. Tried to wake him up but he didn't budge at all. I spent a good half hour crying with him in my arms.
Oh Snowy, if only i knew. If only i knew. I'm so sorry i didn't do enough. I didn't do enough.
I love you. I love you so much, I cursed God for taking away someone most precious to me, most dearest to me, most faithful to me. I cursed God for taking away a gift that lighted my day, that filled my night with joy and filled the void in my heart.
Snowy, I love you, please know that I love you. I'm sorry i didn't do enough. And I will never stop loving you until the day I die.
Thank you for reading, all. I needed this.
Snowy is my cat. My 5 year old cat.
My only bundle of joy, my faithful companion, my friend and confidante.
When he fell very sick 2 days ago, I thought it was something he ate. I brought him to the vet and she said it was just a minor stomach allergy.
His condition deteriorated fast and I got so worried, I skipped my meals, my work and stopped my life to nurse him. He wouldn't eat, wouldn't drink and will just look at me with his soulful eyes.
And pray. I prayed to God to make it all better, to make his suffering go. One moment, he looked like he could make it and appeared ok.But suddenly, he was down. Breathing heavily and could barely opened his eyes. I panicked and packed him up to bring him to the hospital asap.
I drove, oh i drove so fast. I beat all the traffic lights, my heart breaking again and again when i heard him moan helplessly beside me. At a traffic light junction, i suddenly heard a loud cough. My hands were trembling, my vision was blurred and quickly scooped Snowy out from his carrier.
He looked at me and then he left me.
He left me just like that. Took his last breath and left me.
He left me in my arms.
I wailed and cried so hard. Cried and tried. Tried to wake him up but he didn't budge at all. I spent a good half hour crying with him in my arms.
Oh Snowy, if only i knew. If only i knew. I'm so sorry i didn't do enough. I didn't do enough.
I love you. I love you so much, I cursed God for taking away someone most precious to me, most dearest to me, most faithful to me. I cursed God for taking away a gift that lighted my day, that filled my night with joy and filled the void in my heart.
Snowy, I love you, please know that I love you. I'm sorry i didn't do enough. And I will never stop loving you until the day I die.
Thank you for reading, all. I needed this.
