Thank you Dira, losing my Daddy was the most painful thing in the world for me. Tomorrow is the one year anniversary of his death. He was 81 when he passed but it was still very painful. He knew that he had to go, he told my mom that going to the hospital before he passed was his last time. I will be visiting his grave site this weekend. He did come to my dreams to tell me he was ok which was very helpful for me as I was heart broken and literally cried every night for two months when he passed and not sure I was able to make it without him.
I'm sorry you lost your father and I hope that you will find some peace tomorrow.