Our Very Own: Purse Secret
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you put "used to" so I'm guessing it's past tense. Congrats on getting over something that I'm sure was horrible.
Another Secret (again a series of secrets sent in one email):
I am embarassed of one of my friends because she is a big girl and dresses sloppyI feel bad about it, but its the truth.
Back when I was a teenager (and young and shallow.) I went out with a friend and she invited another friend of hers. At first I didn't want to hang out with her for the reasons you mentioned above. Well... this girl ended up being the coolest, most fun, down to earth person I had EVER met. I felt horribly that I judged her over something so stupid (it taught me to never do that again). She ended up being a great friend to me. My point is look for the positive attributes in your friend, the stuff that REALLY makes a great friend. And don't focus on the shallow things.
BTW, I know people who are beautiful and well dressed. And their attitude SUCKS! lol. Give me big, "sloppy" friend any day over a well dressed biatch. lol.
I am so sorry about what is happening with your Dad! *HUGS* I hope you and your family stay safe!
I think maybe sometimes many people go through this in phases! Maybe the times you find him super sexy you can focus on these things during the down times! I'm sure it doesn't mean you love him any less!
I think it's great that people can just get things out!!! Some of these are pretty tame compared to the ones on Post Secret!!!
I am happy that people can get ANYTHING off their chest! Even things that might seem embarassing, and are probably the reason they have been kept a secret!
I am so so sorry for what you went through!!! At least you had your Mom and your brother! I think it is great that you have your brother, because he is probably going through exactly what you went through.....maybe sitting down and talking with him could help you get through this! I bet he is wondering about your half brother too!
I totally agree!
I should have edited myself in my last post. I didnt mean to be rude or hurtful:shame:.
I am just so PROUD that people feel they can do this! Twiggers, you are an angel sent from above!
I love that people have this outlet. Some people really need it. I need it, too. I'm planning on partaking. Twiggers, you are the Bomb!
Here is another Secret:
I hate my body. I'm 5'8'', and my weight fluctuates between 135 and 170. When I was young my dad used to call me fat all the time, and I went bulimic. I think that's why I'm never going to get over this. After awhile, Dad stopped saying it. My mom told him years later exactly how what he said affected me at a young age, and he broke down and cried for the first time ever, and said he was so sorry, and that I was beautiful.
But that hasn't changed it. Everyone tells me I'm beautiful, but every time I look in the mirror I see this hideous, fat blob, and I'm afraid I'm never going to get over it. I'd sell my soul to get past it. But I just can't. Even my wonderful SO, who tells me every day that I'm a "blonde bombshell" and "completely stunning", can't get me past this. I hate my body and I'm so self-conscious and paranoid. Nothing has helped and I don't think it ever will.
I hate my body. I'm 5'8'', and my weight fluctuates between 135 and 170. When I was young my dad used to call me fat all the time, and I went bulimic. I think that's why I'm never going to get over this. After awhile, Dad stopped saying it. My mom told him years later exactly how what he said affected me at a young age, and he broke down and cried for the first time ever, and said he was so sorry, and that I was beautiful.
But that hasn't changed it. Everyone tells me I'm beautiful, but every time I look in the mirror I see this hideous, fat blob, and I'm afraid I'm never going to get over it. I'd sell my soul to get past it. But I just can't. Even my wonderful SO, who tells me every day that I'm a "blonde bombshell" and "completely stunning", can't get me past this. I hate my body and I'm so self-conscious and paranoid. Nothing has helped and I don't think it ever will.
And Another Secret (all from the same email):
When I was addict I did the following bad things that I have never told a soul. I'm over my addiction now, but still feel such shame.
1. I stole $40 from my Grandma. I pretended to go over and visit her for the first time in my life (we weren't really close) and when she thought I was in the bathroom I stole money (she's dead now and I can't apologize)
2. I was a stripper/exotic dancer for 2 years
3. I was a high-priced escort and sold my body for sex (some with local celebrities)
4. I stole money from my parents
5. I stole money from my ex-boyfriend
6. I opened several bank accounts and wrote checks from one to the other until I got caught and had to pay it back
7. I declared bankruptcy at age 19
8. I stole from my employer
9. I wrote bad checks to companies and returned the products for cash
10. I was arrested many times but managed to always pay the companies/banks/people back before it came to jail time
WOW...that felt good.
When I was addict I did the following bad things that I have never told a soul. I'm over my addiction now, but still feel such shame.
1. I stole $40 from my Grandma. I pretended to go over and visit her for the first time in my life (we weren't really close) and when she thought I was in the bathroom I stole money (she's dead now and I can't apologize)
2. I was a stripper/exotic dancer for 2 years
3. I was a high-priced escort and sold my body for sex (some with local celebrities)
4. I stole money from my parents
5. I stole money from my ex-boyfriend
6. I opened several bank accounts and wrote checks from one to the other until I got caught and had to pay it back
7. I declared bankruptcy at age 19
8. I stole from my employer
9. I wrote bad checks to companies and returned the products for cash
10. I was arrested many times but managed to always pay the companies/banks/people back before it came to jail time
WOW...that felt good.
^^Just be proud you have risen above all of that. It wasn't YOU that did those terrible things. It was the drugs. You're over it now, and you're a better person. Many hugs.
And another (all of the below are from the same email):
To my husband:
I hate your driving
I hate your music from the 1980s
I hate how you criticize everything I do or everything anyone does, when all we are trying to do is be helpful and nice. If you don't like my cooking don't eat it.
I wish you'd try to lose weight
I wish you'd stop bugging me about sex
I wish you'd stop making fun of me
I wish you'd stop be so vulgar all the time
Stop watching COPS...the show is stupid
Stop dressing like a slob...grease stains are not attractive
Stop telling me you make more money than I do. I get it already!
To my husband:
I hate your driving
I hate your music from the 1980s
I hate how you criticize everything I do or everything anyone does, when all we are trying to do is be helpful and nice. If you don't like my cooking don't eat it.
I wish you'd try to lose weight
I wish you'd stop bugging me about sex
I wish you'd stop making fun of me
I wish you'd stop be so vulgar all the time
Stop watching COPS...the show is stupid
Stop dressing like a slob...grease stains are not attractive
Stop telling me you make more money than I do. I get it already!
Here is another Secret:
I hate my body. I'm 5'8'', and my weight fluctuates between 135 and 170. When I was young my dad used to call me fat all the time, and I went bulimic. I think that's why I'm never going to get over this. After awhile, Dad stopped saying it. My mom told him years later exactly how what he said affected me at a young age, and he broke down and cried for the first time ever, and said he was so sorry, and that I was beautiful.
But that hasn't changed it. Everyone tells me I'm beautiful, but every time I look in the mirror I see this hideous, fat blob, and I'm afraid I'm never going to get over it. I'd sell my soul to get past it. But I just can't. Even my wonderful SO, who tells me every day that I'm a "blonde bombshell" and "completely stunning", can't get me past this. I hate my body and I'm so self-conscious and paranoid. Nothing has helped and I don't think it ever will.
Oh sweetie....I am so sorry! I am so glad your Dad was able to apologize to you...it was not right of him to say those things, but at least he manned up and apologized.
I too go through periods where I hate my body....I try to look at others who have a similar body type and see how confident they seem to be in their bodies and use that as an inspiration! *HUGS*
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