I really hate it. I have been crying every single day since February 16. I don't know... I am just so incredibly hurt by my husbands infidelity. I wish that no one would ever have to go through this. I don't understand why he did it. I don't understand how I could have not known. It just hurts SO much. Everyday I wake up and it's the first thing I think about. I go to bed and it's the last thing I think about. They had a long relationship by anyone's standards and it hurts me so much to know that the kind of relation we share, he was carrying on with someone else, It makes me feel so disposible like anyone could take my place in his life that I didn't mean enough or wasn't special enough to him to ignore this other woman. The way he is to me.