WOW... *This is the REALEST most honest post that Ive read in awhile. You actually just took the words right out of my mouth, as I was thinking of posting something like this for quite some time. I still might... *I think so many of us on here can fully identify with this, although I believe many don't like to admit it...
When you really think about it, it's no different than a drug addiction... *With any drug, it starts off as something recreational at first...or a "once in a lifetime" thing. Then you like the feeling, so the use becomes more frequent. You then need MORE because you start developing a tolerance to the drug. *From that point on, your tolerance keeps going up, up, UP! What used to be enough to satisfy you and make you feel good when you first started is NOW not enough... *You eventually get to the point where nothing is EVER enough anymore. Nothing can or WILL make you feel as good as the early days...
See the similarities? *That's the way it is for me with bags. *It's NEVER enough. I'm NEVER ever satisfied. *I keep craving more, more, more! *I remember when a $40 knockoff bag from the flea market would make me ecstatic! *(that's what fueled this whole designer addiction...lol). Then when one wasn't enough, I had to have more! Then I realized they were junk and got upset when they fell apart. *That's when I had to start "splurging" on bags that would last. *I remember how psyched I was when I bought my first "designer" bag. The Nicky Hilton/Samantha Thavasa "you're a star" bag. I lusted over that bag for over 2 years. Back then I couldn't justify spending $300+ dollars on a bag, so I treated it like it was a diamond encrusted Hermes!!! *Thennn I remember how happy I was when I got my first
Coach! *And then my first LV!!! *Even though I had an LV, I still loved and used my lower-end bags... *All was fine.*
But then somewhere, somehow my addiction spiraled out of control. *I started shopping on sites like giltgroupe and, even though I've always loved eBay, I found some truly amazing eBay sellers and started checking their listings daily. *I started becoming a bag snob, and suddenly Coach and Dooney weren't good enough for me. *I could only carry premier designers now! *
And nowww, at this point in my life, "premier designer" doesn't just stop at handbags for me... *I now NEED designer jewelry. Designer shoes. Designer iPhone case. *More, more, MORE!!! *Walmart makeup? *Pssshhht! *I need Chanel...Dior... *And I never in a million years thought that I could EVER justify paying $600 for a piece of plastic...that is, until I started buying LV bag charms! Then last week I just bought a plastic, er..."lucite" Chanel bangle. *I'm seriously out of control.*
Luckily, I DO get alot of my bags brand new at FANTASTIC prices, but really, what comes next? *I have LV, Chanel, Chloe, Balenciaga,
Gucci, etc., so it obviously takes ALOT more to satisfy me and make me happy now. *I don't even get excited about LV anymore, so what WILL finally satisfy me? *Hermes??? *AND THEN WHAT...? *FYI, I'm from a major hick-town where no one even knows or CARES about designer things, so why must I be this way? *Everyone asks me ALL THE TIME which "flea market" I purchased my "knock-off" at... *I also don't make a ton of money. *Frankly, there's NO way someone like me should be able to afford the kinds of things that I do, but I always find a way...
It really does scare me now because my standards are set so unbelievably high. *And they just keep going up, up, up!!! *Nothing ever seems good enough... *Around Xmas time, I was showing my bf some things that I wanted, and he goes, "Why can't you be like everyone else? *Any other girl in this town would be thrilled to get even a Coach bag for Xmas!" *My answer..."Because I'm not just ANY girl...Im special! *If you want someone who's just like everyone else, go out w SOMEONE ELSE!". Truth is, I'd like to THINK that I'd be happy with ANYTHING he got me for Xmas, but deep down I know if he got me a Coach bag, I'd be MAJORLY disappointed! *(Poor guy had to sell a CAR just to get me a few lv goodies...lol). *I just feel like my values are so distorted, and it's truly hard for me to appreciate anything anymore. *It's like, where do I go from here? * *