Jemi:
I looked at this forum a lot before I decided I wanted a Gold/PH 30 Birkin. When I received the beautiful pre-owned bag, I felt it was too dainty and too close to the size of the Kelly. I am now selling the bag via a re-seller to finance my 35 gold/ph, which I absolutely LOVE. I especially love the squishy Clemence leather. All my other Hermes bags are stiff or semi-stiff leathers and I can't say enough about the soft casual feel of the Clemence. It really feels right, even with shorts and flip flops, like I wore is yesterday running errands in 90 degree Atlanta heat.
So I have the color/hardware choice right, but not the size or the leather type. Perhaps something very close to your original instincts with a few tweaks. I don't believe you "learn to love" a 5-figure ($) bag! You either love it or it has to go!
Daphne
Daphne, I hope I stumble across your bag as that is the specs I want, 30 in gold with PH!