Okay, I don't normally post threads, but I've been having something bug me for the past few months, and it's been driving me up the wall now that school is beginning to approach. I feel stupid for posting this, but I need a little advice, if any.
I'm going into a PhD program for Developmental Psych, and although I'm looking forward to school and all, I can't shake off the idea that I don't feel confident in my skills/intellect. The reason for that is because I come from a humble background, and no one in my family has gone on to do a PhD program because they didn't have/didn't take up the opportunity, they were too poor, or they were messed up in some sort of way (don't ask). And I hate to say this, but I think being a Filipino is part of the reason why I don't feel like I can do well. Not saying that my ethnic background isn't as prestigious as other ethnicities, but I can't think of any full-blooded Filipino I can look up to and who's been in my situation. It's easy for me to think of someone who's white, African American, East Asian, Indian, and Latino who's gone on to get their PhD...but not Filipinos. I'm not trying to bash my own race! But I just don't know if I can do it when I don't know anyone who has done what I'm doing. Even reading statistics/textbooks makes me more pessimistic about my potential future.
To make the situation better (not), none of my close friends from high school are going to get their PhDs and I'm jealous because it seems like they have some sort of stability in their lives (married and have salary jobs), and I'm going to school when I don't know if I can finish!
Basically, I've done research before, I did an Honors thesis, did well in school/GREs...but a part of me still thinks I'm underestimating what I got myself into. Am I getting cold feet? Is what I'm feeling normal? GAH!!!
Okay, end vent.
I'm going into a PhD program for Developmental Psych, and although I'm looking forward to school and all, I can't shake off the idea that I don't feel confident in my skills/intellect. The reason for that is because I come from a humble background, and no one in my family has gone on to do a PhD program because they didn't have/didn't take up the opportunity, they were too poor, or they were messed up in some sort of way (don't ask). And I hate to say this, but I think being a Filipino is part of the reason why I don't feel like I can do well. Not saying that my ethnic background isn't as prestigious as other ethnicities, but I can't think of any full-blooded Filipino I can look up to and who's been in my situation. It's easy for me to think of someone who's white, African American, East Asian, Indian, and Latino who's gone on to get their PhD...but not Filipinos. I'm not trying to bash my own race! But I just don't know if I can do it when I don't know anyone who has done what I'm doing. Even reading statistics/textbooks makes me more pessimistic about my potential future.
To make the situation better (not), none of my close friends from high school are going to get their PhDs and I'm jealous because it seems like they have some sort of stability in their lives (married and have salary jobs), and I'm going to school when I don't know if I can finish!
Basically, I've done research before, I did an Honors thesis, did well in school/GREs...but a part of me still thinks I'm underestimating what I got myself into. Am I getting cold feet? Is what I'm feeling normal? GAH!!!
Okay, end vent.