Hi Shasta, I am very sorry for what you have been going through. I would like to let you know that I would be happy to talk to you when you need it. Always know that you have lots of supports here from your tpf friends. I lost my dad (unexpected) 2 years ago, so I do know what you have been going through. I didn't know what to do at first, but somehow I survive. We will keep you and your family in thought and prayers.