so i just completely deleted a HUGE post, to i suppose just ask this.
everyone deserves a second chance right? my ex boyfriend and i are tryin to work stuff out right now. the reason we broke up was on him (that was 8 months ago) and he pretty much blamed me for everything when he first left. since those 8 months have past his attitude has completely adjusted. there are too many details to i suppose even go into, i could type for days trying to explain this situation. i suppose i just want reassurance that i'm not wasting my frickin time.
i saw him for the first time in 8 months this weekend. i picked him up from school (an hour and a half away). he had called me on tuesday and we talked all week. i just wanted to see if he'd say everything to my face that he'd said over the phone. that and much more i assure you, came out that day. i can tell he's changed in every single aspect.... emotional physical etc etc. so ok, we had sex but we're not back together yet (how can you resist your favorite ex ever?) i hate that but it's what it is.
he made a good point. he wants things to work so we're going to take things slowly. i told him i was trusting him to figure this stuff out cuz the ball is in his court. he just didn't want to slap a lable on us so quickly because he didn't want that to put us right back where we started. he didn't want to make the same mistake he made the first time.
i know this post is so scattered i just don't know what to do. i dropped him off sunday, it's monday, i need to shut up and ride it out don't i it's a GOOD thing that he's trying to anylize the situation right? it's a good thing that he's taking his time with this relationship right?
i just hate having to wait for that phone call. i hate the whole situation being in his hands. someone tell me this is all gonna come out clean and i'm going to be happy. i'm goin nuts over here. i think he's legit because why else would he call me after all this time? it hasn't even been 24 hours since i dropped him off and all i can think about is getting that phone call. i need to ease up. i want to slam back into things and i KNOW that's completely stupid.
eek help someone shut me up! talk to me! i'm only 22~! my brain hurts!
ETA: i'm having faith in this situation because he used to have NO communication skills what so ever and now he can at least talk to me... which gives me hope.
everyone deserves a second chance right? my ex boyfriend and i are tryin to work stuff out right now. the reason we broke up was on him (that was 8 months ago) and he pretty much blamed me for everything when he first left. since those 8 months have past his attitude has completely adjusted. there are too many details to i suppose even go into, i could type for days trying to explain this situation. i suppose i just want reassurance that i'm not wasting my frickin time.
i saw him for the first time in 8 months this weekend. i picked him up from school (an hour and a half away). he had called me on tuesday and we talked all week. i just wanted to see if he'd say everything to my face that he'd said over the phone. that and much more i assure you, came out that day. i can tell he's changed in every single aspect.... emotional physical etc etc. so ok, we had sex but we're not back together yet (how can you resist your favorite ex ever?) i hate that but it's what it is.
he made a good point. he wants things to work so we're going to take things slowly. i told him i was trusting him to figure this stuff out cuz the ball is in his court. he just didn't want to slap a lable on us so quickly because he didn't want that to put us right back where we started. he didn't want to make the same mistake he made the first time.
i know this post is so scattered i just don't know what to do. i dropped him off sunday, it's monday, i need to shut up and ride it out don't i it's a GOOD thing that he's trying to anylize the situation right? it's a good thing that he's taking his time with this relationship right?
i just hate having to wait for that phone call. i hate the whole situation being in his hands. someone tell me this is all gonna come out clean and i'm going to be happy. i'm goin nuts over here. i think he's legit because why else would he call me after all this time? it hasn't even been 24 hours since i dropped him off and all i can think about is getting that phone call. i need to ease up. i want to slam back into things and i KNOW that's completely stupid.
eek help someone shut me up! talk to me! i'm only 22~! my brain hurts!
ETA: i'm having faith in this situation because he used to have NO communication skills what so ever and now he can at least talk to me... which gives me hope.