Hello me again! Talking again about how I got my dream job in a large company in my early 20's.
Well since, I've worked -under the same position/title- in very different areas and project s learning skills along the way....but never quite capable of using these new skills as a stepping stone (somehow I learn and forget). So I haven't climbed the corporate ladder preferring the excitement of the various areas and moving sideways instead.
Now I've reached a point where I like less and less the corporate fortune company type.
I used to dream of being a business creative woman myself. Ambitions.
I feel I don't belong anymore...management is not for me (I had anxiety with the responsibilities.)
But I'm together on the same ground level as with employees who are much younger and I feel I lack the younger fresher skills and mainly energy and motivation that the new comers have....I mean I look younger and I'm often admired by these youngsters for my calmness and style. But probably not my work anymore. I'm considering just changing all together.
I could find a job within that field somewhere else but I'm doubting my skills so much.
Or I could just use my overall general skills and start over in another field. Something easier.
Or I'm considering travelling.
Sometimes I'm so tired of these expectations I just want to be a barista in my fav coffee shop.
Of course I have a hard time thinking of letting go of my comfy lifestyle. (the yearly holidays/exotic trips and the cocktails bars and nice clothes I can afford on a steady salary) going backwards instead of more....I see my friends working and having more and more and soon I won't be able to follow and afford the same lifestyle.
And -linked to my other thread- I ve had enough of the location, even though it's apparently cool, new people come and "fall in love" with the city and I can't see the beauty of it anymore!! Like I'm done.
I mean, what do you do mid-career when you are -still- not on management level?? Can u still be hired somewhere else or you have to create your own job?
Also I have had a tendency to attach my value as a person to my job....and I don't want to feel like I'm just giving up...
OP, did you end up finding something else?
