Thank you! You're always so kind to me.

I'm okay with how long it took to get here. I'm just relieved I'm here. I was expecting to be gone in the next 5 years or so, so this is just a gift in every sense. I'm breathing deeply in a way I haven't been able to in years- just from the weight of illness being lifted off my shoulders.

I do wish they hadn't admitted and discharged me so many times. That process is exhausting in and of itself, but I'm happy to be home now, so it's all okay.
Funny you should say I look skinny, that has been a weird journey this year. My usual weight is 45kgs at 5'4, so small-ish.
Being on steroids (as part of my earlier treatment protocol) I got up to 49kgs. Then that double punch of covid brought me down to 39kgs! That was a scary low weight.

I'm swollen in these pics from one of the drugs they tried on me in the last admission (slowly losing that swelling day by day), so I have no idea what my current weight is. I did regain some weight after recovering from covid, but the swelling now is confusing me as I look so different.
All I know for sure is that my body feels alien from all the fluctuation in weight. I want to feel healthy again and will allow my body to settle wherever it wants to.
Edit: From the pics, which side do you prefer the coach strap to be on? White or pink? I can't decide and would love outside opinions.