Oh no I am so very sorry. My heart goes out to you. Last year I had to put my cat Snappy (13 yrs old and my very best friend) to sleep. Just a month ago we had to put our dog Sandy to sleep, and it's been an awfully hard year to say the least. They were truly my best friends - not a day goes by that I don't think of them What gets me through it is I truly believe I will see them one day ---> this comforts me so, it's very emotional but maybe it will help give you some peace....Again I am so very sorry for your loss. In time it will get easier, I promise.
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