You and I are the same creature- some days I see myself in the mirror and think "damn I'm actually good looking!" and other days I don't want to leave the house because I find myself unattractive and can't imagine other people seeing me that way (It's never actually stopped me from doing anything but it's still weird to think about how others see you).
isn't that strange?
that's why sometimes i wish, even though i know it's juvenile and frivolous, that someone would tell me, definitively, "you're attractive", or "you're ugly". even though that would be just their personal opinion- yet another completely subjective view of me, no objective, true gauge. meaning i'd immediately start questioning what they might REALLY mean. if it's sincere or not- and if it is, if their opinion could possibly be "right" or not....ahhhh..even more confusion!
i think it's just something we have to decide for ourselves. decide to have faith that the day when we find ourselves to be decent looking are the days when the "truth" peeks out and shows itself to us. and stick to that idea. so we can come back to it and hold onto it on days when we feel less than stellar about ourselves.
because no one will ever really tell you the "truth" about how you look. because, really, there is no truth besides what we choose it to be!
we owe it to ourselves to choose well, right?