ok so why is it that guys are such a$$:censor: ...??
so it all goes back to 4:30 am. i call and wake him up for work like i always do. (he never does the same for me) he gets off of work and tells me he misses me...aww how sweet..yeah right. then later on he pulls me back and forth saying i dont know what we're going to do tonite..so i get ready anyway..then i find out he leaves to go hang with his pal ...thanks for the phone calll. UH.
so then i go to blockbuster solo and see a friend from one of my old classes he invited me out with some of his friends to grab dinner. so of course i go. i get home at like 12 and let my bf know im home in a text message and he calls and is like where were you??? um EXCUSE ME but i went out...just like you. so of course he's pissed..double standard right?
so we get into it. and the truth is i haven't been happy at all lately. he's so neglectful of me. last thursday was my bday, he shows up says happy birthday...no card, no cake, no rose. nada. i was shocked. this almost measured up to valentines day where he lead me to a cheap hotel thinking we could be alone. nice thougt? but i even told him it better not be a hotel room for v-day but he got it anyway in the end.
so im hysterically crying on the phone tonite to him bc i dont understand why someone doesn't want to do anything special for me or show me any sort of appreciation..no compliments, birthday card, anything. not even a phone call to make sure im not late to class/work like i do for him.i make him handmade valentines buy him gifts pay for dinners. and its not like he doesnt ahve the money especially with his recent promotion. i dont ever ask for anything but that doesnt mean that once and a while i dont want to be doted on.
i mean its gotten to the point where its inconvinient for him to come over (2 minute drive) and comfort me and try to change my mind bc he'd rather sleep bc he's tired from hanging with his friends. i dont think he takes me seriously. and the only thing he says when i say im seriously considering leaving him is "you'll miss me" i try not to laugh in his face. am i crazy for still loving him?? are there guys out there who will treat me better?? im hoping so but it seems doubtful...:cry: i need some reassurance b4 i make or break it with this guy.
so it all goes back to 4:30 am. i call and wake him up for work like i always do. (he never does the same for me) he gets off of work and tells me he misses me...aww how sweet..yeah right. then later on he pulls me back and forth saying i dont know what we're going to do tonite..so i get ready anyway..then i find out he leaves to go hang with his pal ...thanks for the phone calll. UH.
so then i go to blockbuster solo and see a friend from one of my old classes he invited me out with some of his friends to grab dinner. so of course i go. i get home at like 12 and let my bf know im home in a text message and he calls and is like where were you??? um EXCUSE ME but i went out...just like you. so of course he's pissed..double standard right?
so we get into it. and the truth is i haven't been happy at all lately. he's so neglectful of me. last thursday was my bday, he shows up says happy birthday...no card, no cake, no rose. nada. i was shocked. this almost measured up to valentines day where he lead me to a cheap hotel thinking we could be alone. nice thougt? but i even told him it better not be a hotel room for v-day but he got it anyway in the end.
so im hysterically crying on the phone tonite to him bc i dont understand why someone doesn't want to do anything special for me or show me any sort of appreciation..no compliments, birthday card, anything. not even a phone call to make sure im not late to class/work like i do for him.i make him handmade valentines buy him gifts pay for dinners. and its not like he doesnt ahve the money especially with his recent promotion. i dont ever ask for anything but that doesnt mean that once and a while i dont want to be doted on.
i mean its gotten to the point where its inconvinient for him to come over (2 minute drive) and comfort me and try to change my mind bc he'd rather sleep bc he's tired from hanging with his friends. i dont think he takes me seriously. and the only thing he says when i say im seriously considering leaving him is "you'll miss me" i try not to laugh in his face. am i crazy for still loving him?? are there guys out there who will treat me better?? im hoping so but it seems doubtful...:cry: i need some reassurance b4 i make or break it with this guy.