That's how I feel. I'm not willing to lose him at all. But I do have those doubts about him being lazy and unreliable. I know he's faithful and I don't doubt him on that but something I just want to strangle him. One of my friends got married and she said the worst fights and arguements happened before the wedding. I know I have the jitters that's for sure. By the way I'm 23...I know that's YOUNG but I'm Indian (But I'm American since I was born here) so it's alright with me. The getting married part is alright but sometimes it's not. It's hard to be stuck in the middle of two cultures. I'm marrying my boyfriend, we've been together for almost two years so it's not like I don't know the guy but sometimes the wedding is overwhelming.
Thanks everyone for your well wishes. Just wanted to know how bad can the jitters get.
Ahhh, the joys of belonging to two cultures! Ethnically, you are Indian, but culturally, you are American. Are your parents pressuring you to get married, or are you getting married because your ethnic culture dictates that now is the right time? You need to seperate the two and look at what is right for you. I know that this is difficult if you are experiencing pressure from your family, but at some point you have to live for yourself.
In my dad's culture, women live at home until they get married. When I was 22, I told my father that I wanted to live on my own. He stopped funding my education and didn't talk to me for a year when I moved out. At first, I was upset, but now i'm glad that I experienced independence because many of my friends who are from the same culture are experiencing early mid-life crisis, wanting to have fun now that we are all in our 30s.
My friend, who is Indian, was pressured into getting married after she graduated from college. Her brother married (arranged marriage) and was happy with the decision, since he didn't have to work too hard to find a bride, but she, being more American and independent, couldn't see herself marrying a stranger. She ended up running away to NY. Her parents were angry for a while, but they eventually reconciled with her. She is still unmarried (nearing 40) and is happy and succesful in dating and her career, although some family members think it a shame that she hasn't married yet.
Again, think hard about what is good for
you, not what others expect from you.