Sorry but I really have to get this off my chest (again) because I'm extremely stressed out. 2007 has not been a good year for me so far and it's not even February yet. I'm really wishing this year to be over soon. My work situation is just getting worse and worse. I used to be able to use work to escape the other stressful aspect of my life, and now I really have no other means of stress relief.
Let me take a brief moment to explain my department's structure. I'm a financial analyst in the Capital Market/Structured Finance dept. The Repurchase Dept (dept that buys back crappy loans) is right next to mine. Both my dept and the Repurchase Dept falls under the jurisdiction of my boss. I'm the ONLY person who can do the stuff at my dept and I have been pretty busy because I had to pull all the weight. The Repurchase Dept is short-staffed and they were way behind on things because of poor management. So, now I am helping them get caught up on things. That in itself shouldn't be a problem except the people at the Repurchase Dept were always whining and b!tching about how they have too much work.
Here's the thing, these were the SAME people who spent their time taking personal phone calls and excessive breaks. However, because they sat far away from my boss, my boss didn't know what was going on. And since they were constantly whining and made it look as though they were swamped, my boss decided that I was to take half of these people's duties. The thing is, I AM busy too. I was swamped too. Just because I was actually efficient and do my job doesn't mean I have nothing else to do. Unfortunately, if I speak up, they're just going to interpret it as my not being able to handle my responsibility (yes, serious double standards going on here, just because I don't whine like some ppl do).
So now, instead of learning more about Capital Markets and learning useful things, I was stuck doing things for the Repurchase Dept (brainless menial chores that involved sorting papers, logging stuff, and carrying boxes) on top of my normal duty. Oh, I forgot to mention that my boss had also decided that since he was too busy, he was going to DOUBLE my workload in the coming months. While he told me of this, he also told me that it was for certain that i would NOT be getting a raise or promotion this year because the company wasn't doing well. He also said that the company would not be reimbursing me at all should I choose to take courses to further advance myself because the industry was not doing well (this is total BS because one of my coworkers is having his MBA classes completely reimbursed by the company).
And just when I thought things couldn't get any worse, another bomb dropped - I ran into my boss from my FORMER work place this morning. Apparently, she has joined the company! Why was that a bad thing? Because she was the reason I left my former employer. You see, my former boss was caught in work politics with another manager. I happened to be stuck in the middle and because I refused to choose a side, my former employer got angry at me and forced me to resign under the excuse that I applied to transfer to another dept without letting her know first. Of course, since she had more seniority than I do, HR believe what she said and I had to resign to avoid being fired. And now, this person was working at my company and what was worse is she was friends with my boss' boss' boss (yup, several levels up). Considering what she has done in the past work place, I wouldn't put it past her to do something underhanded again.
In addition to work drama, I'm getting nowhere with my job hunt. I've spoken with several headhunters who told me that because I was underpaid by 10K (yup, my company underpaid me by 10K, is going to double my workload, and yet they refuse to give me a raise), it's making potential employers THINK there was something wrong with me. I took on my current job because at the time there was room for me to growth. But due to bad market and re-structuring, I was unable to do the dept rotation program (that was the original intent when they hired me) and was stuck at the same place for the past couple years. So now it's damn if I do, damn if I don't ...
Now, a common thing that people tell me when things get tough is that at least "I still have my health". Well apparently, I don't have that either. Due to all the physical strains at work (carrying boxes and stuff), I had injured my left shoulder. Now it hurt like Hell whenever I don't sit in a certain way or stand in a certain way. I couldn't even use my left arm to carry my puppy (a toy size dog) anymore because of this. Furthermore, I had discovered a lump along my jaw right below my right ear. My doctor said that it was most likely an infection and that if the lump doesn't go away after I finish the entire bottle of meds, they're going to have to cut me open.
So yup, 2007 has been an absolutely wonderful year *sarcastic*. I'm already unhappy with work, and now I have to worry about my former boss doing something crappy to me. I'm still getting nowhere with my job hunt (and I know I don't suck), my Mom is still being the way she was, and my health was going down the drain. I REALLY do not like my life very much right now ...
Let me take a brief moment to explain my department's structure. I'm a financial analyst in the Capital Market/Structured Finance dept. The Repurchase Dept (dept that buys back crappy loans) is right next to mine. Both my dept and the Repurchase Dept falls under the jurisdiction of my boss. I'm the ONLY person who can do the stuff at my dept and I have been pretty busy because I had to pull all the weight. The Repurchase Dept is short-staffed and they were way behind on things because of poor management. So, now I am helping them get caught up on things. That in itself shouldn't be a problem except the people at the Repurchase Dept were always whining and b!tching about how they have too much work.
Here's the thing, these were the SAME people who spent their time taking personal phone calls and excessive breaks. However, because they sat far away from my boss, my boss didn't know what was going on. And since they were constantly whining and made it look as though they were swamped, my boss decided that I was to take half of these people's duties. The thing is, I AM busy too. I was swamped too. Just because I was actually efficient and do my job doesn't mean I have nothing else to do. Unfortunately, if I speak up, they're just going to interpret it as my not being able to handle my responsibility (yes, serious double standards going on here, just because I don't whine like some ppl do).
So now, instead of learning more about Capital Markets and learning useful things, I was stuck doing things for the Repurchase Dept (brainless menial chores that involved sorting papers, logging stuff, and carrying boxes) on top of my normal duty. Oh, I forgot to mention that my boss had also decided that since he was too busy, he was going to DOUBLE my workload in the coming months. While he told me of this, he also told me that it was for certain that i would NOT be getting a raise or promotion this year because the company wasn't doing well. He also said that the company would not be reimbursing me at all should I choose to take courses to further advance myself because the industry was not doing well (this is total BS because one of my coworkers is having his MBA classes completely reimbursed by the company).
And just when I thought things couldn't get any worse, another bomb dropped - I ran into my boss from my FORMER work place this morning. Apparently, she has joined the company! Why was that a bad thing? Because she was the reason I left my former employer. You see, my former boss was caught in work politics with another manager. I happened to be stuck in the middle and because I refused to choose a side, my former employer got angry at me and forced me to resign under the excuse that I applied to transfer to another dept without letting her know first. Of course, since she had more seniority than I do, HR believe what she said and I had to resign to avoid being fired. And now, this person was working at my company and what was worse is she was friends with my boss' boss' boss (yup, several levels up). Considering what she has done in the past work place, I wouldn't put it past her to do something underhanded again.
In addition to work drama, I'm getting nowhere with my job hunt. I've spoken with several headhunters who told me that because I was underpaid by 10K (yup, my company underpaid me by 10K, is going to double my workload, and yet they refuse to give me a raise), it's making potential employers THINK there was something wrong with me. I took on my current job because at the time there was room for me to growth. But due to bad market and re-structuring, I was unable to do the dept rotation program (that was the original intent when they hired me) and was stuck at the same place for the past couple years. So now it's damn if I do, damn if I don't ...
Now, a common thing that people tell me when things get tough is that at least "I still have my health". Well apparently, I don't have that either. Due to all the physical strains at work (carrying boxes and stuff), I had injured my left shoulder. Now it hurt like Hell whenever I don't sit in a certain way or stand in a certain way. I couldn't even use my left arm to carry my puppy (a toy size dog) anymore because of this. Furthermore, I had discovered a lump along my jaw right below my right ear. My doctor said that it was most likely an infection and that if the lump doesn't go away after I finish the entire bottle of meds, they're going to have to cut me open.
So yup, 2007 has been an absolutely wonderful year *sarcastic*. I'm already unhappy with work, and now I have to worry about my former boss doing something crappy to me. I'm still getting nowhere with my job hunt (and I know I don't suck), my Mom is still being the way she was, and my health was going down the drain. I REALLY do not like my life very much right now ...
