Ok- I have been in a real funk today...cant eat...cant sleep...and the purses arent helping me feel better!LOL!
I need your opinions.......
I have a strange family situation.....I am the youngest of 7..however my mom has treated me different from day one...never fit in and was treated like so incredibly bad growing up that I can barely talk about it to anyone.I was basically raised by a live-in nanny....and my mom is one of thoses people who always talks down to me and treats my little one like crap.However she LOVES my oldest daughter...from a previous marriage.....who is 16...and treats her like royalty.....making my little one feel horrible.Picture this...when I visit them..they will IGNORE my little one...and totally buy my older one everything...even in front of my daughter(Little one=9 yrs old)...its sad.Because it reminds me of how I felt growing up and being ignored by her.I have tried to talk to her(MY MOM)...its useless..I have cut them out of my life..but its not fair to my 9 year old either.....
So this is the dilemna...My parents are having a HUGE party this weekend..where they live....I would have to book the airfare by midnight tonight..its their Anniversary party.(A big one)I am sick about going because everytime I see my mom she makes me cry...and puts me down...in front of everyone...and I cant stand it when she ignores my 9 year old..It breaks my heart(she (My 9 yr old)is like the greatest kid you will ever meet...SOOO sweet!I couldnt love her anymore and be more proud of her)
It never stops-I stand up to her time after time...she doesnt care ...
Plus its like a big flashback to a really bad time in my life...My siblings are nice enough...but they grew up 10 years ahead of me and I didnt really know them well(like a 2 generation family)They will ALL be at the anniversary party.....do I go? I am sick to my stomach about what to do.....
Did I add to this that only my 16 year old is allowed to stay at my parents house....they live in Hilton Head... My little one and I must stay elsewhere......I try to do the right thing but I am so stressed..is it worth the gray hair to go??
Thanks for listening...I appreciate all your advice!
I need your opinions.......
I have a strange family situation.....I am the youngest of 7..however my mom has treated me different from day one...never fit in and was treated like so incredibly bad growing up that I can barely talk about it to anyone.I was basically raised by a live-in nanny....and my mom is one of thoses people who always talks down to me and treats my little one like crap.However she LOVES my oldest daughter...from a previous marriage.....who is 16...and treats her like royalty.....making my little one feel horrible.Picture this...when I visit them..they will IGNORE my little one...and totally buy my older one everything...even in front of my daughter(Little one=9 yrs old)...its sad.Because it reminds me of how I felt growing up and being ignored by her.I have tried to talk to her(MY MOM)...its useless..I have cut them out of my life..but its not fair to my 9 year old either.....
So this is the dilemna...My parents are having a HUGE party this weekend..where they live....I would have to book the airfare by midnight tonight..its their Anniversary party.(A big one)I am sick about going because everytime I see my mom she makes me cry...and puts me down...in front of everyone...and I cant stand it when she ignores my 9 year old..It breaks my heart(she (My 9 yr old)is like the greatest kid you will ever meet...SOOO sweet!I couldnt love her anymore and be more proud of her)
It never stops-I stand up to her time after time...she doesnt care ...
Plus its like a big flashback to a really bad time in my life...My siblings are nice enough...but they grew up 10 years ahead of me and I didnt really know them well(like a 2 generation family)They will ALL be at the anniversary party.....do I go? I am sick to my stomach about what to do.....
Did I add to this that only my 16 year old is allowed to stay at my parents house....they live in Hilton Head... My little one and I must stay elsewhere......I try to do the right thing but I am so stressed..is it worth the gray hair to go??
Thanks for listening...I appreciate all your advice!