Earlier this year my cat, Tommy died. It was a very hard time for me. I was so attatched to her. She was my first cat. A couple months ago I adopted a kitten from my good friend's kitty rescue. She is very sweet and lovey dovey but hyper - crazy!! She runs all over the countertop and knocks things over. I have a little squirt bottle to help train her, but this didn't seem to phase her. She'll attack moving body parts under the sheets while you're sleeping at night and wake you up. I have two boys ages 22 months and 3 yrs. They don't understand the playfullness of a kitten and they are often mean to her. She thinks they are playing so she "plays" back and gently scratches or bites them. They freak out and start crying. She loves people food! She loves to "visit" while we are having dinner and doesn't understand no so we end up putting her in the garage while we eat. I can't be on the computer without her jumping all over the keys...
Lately I have been so stressed out. Stressed and depressed. I so desperately needed some stress reduction. I made the decision to return her to my friend's shelter. My friend was so understanding. I thought this was right for everybody - me, my kids, my other cat, Jerry. My friend kept telling me she was the wrong cat for me from the start. And that she would understand if I wanted to "trade her in". I know she is still a kitten - 5 months and still very playful very high strung. She was just getting on my nerves!! I feel so horrible. I do. I cried as I opened the carrier to let her out to her new home. At home I see her kitten food and all her little toys and get all teary eyed. It feels like the right thing, but then it doesn't. I feel like I gave up. I feel like a bad parent - I gave away a child because I couldn't handle her. She was my responsibility!!
I feel like I need stress management improvement skills or something. If only I could manage stress better I could handle anything. I could handle the wild kitty and everything else. I know I can always go and get her... Maybe when my life is calmer? Maybe when the kids are older? Maybe when she is older? Maybe I wasn't ready for another cat... I don't know. I feel bad. I feel sad.
Lately I have been so stressed out. Stressed and depressed. I so desperately needed some stress reduction. I made the decision to return her to my friend's shelter. My friend was so understanding. I thought this was right for everybody - me, my kids, my other cat, Jerry. My friend kept telling me she was the wrong cat for me from the start. And that she would understand if I wanted to "trade her in". I know she is still a kitten - 5 months and still very playful very high strung. She was just getting on my nerves!! I feel so horrible. I do. I cried as I opened the carrier to let her out to her new home. At home I see her kitten food and all her little toys and get all teary eyed. It feels like the right thing, but then it doesn't. I feel like I gave up. I feel like a bad parent - I gave away a child because I couldn't handle her. She was my responsibility!!
I feel like I need stress management improvement skills or something. If only I could manage stress better I could handle anything. I could handle the wild kitty and everything else. I know I can always go and get her... Maybe when my life is calmer? Maybe when the kids are older? Maybe when she is older? Maybe I wasn't ready for another cat... I don't know. I feel bad. I feel sad.