So I work for a big company... and we are "consolidating" locations. There are 5 branches in NorCal and 5 more in SoCal, so they're dividing us up into 2 divisions (north and south) and consolidating the respective branches. I *hear* the branch I'm at is going to be the main NorCal branch... so people will be moving into empty offices and cubicles in the next 30 days... but there will also be layoffs.
Technically, I am "upper management", but am not privy to any of the consolidation info... at all. I know nothing other than what everyone else knows... and I'm STRESSIN...
1. I was one of the last hired (that whole last hired first fired keeps running through my mind)
2. We are insanely slow. My workload is nothing like it should be, but I'm doing what I can to make sure I stay busy (and LOOK busy)
3. I'm a single mom and there's no way I can make it on UI
4. I'm going thru cancer treatment. It has not affected my work schedule or performance, but I'm worried I could be viewed as expendable because I'm not "healthy" (against the law, yes, but only if thats ever brought up, which it wouldn't be)
5. Because of reason #4 I cannot lose health benefits... and I won't be able to afford Cobra.
Our 'operations manager' was in my supervisor's office earlier today... and when he left she was in tears. Now mind you, she was just hired a few months ago... so I don't know if she may be let go or what she would be crying for. She and I are not *close*, but she knows and understands my medical situation... so now I have myself convinced that maybe she was just told I was going to be laid off... I dunno...
Realistically I know I am probably safe... for now. If we pick up some work, then I'm pretty secure. If we don't, I don't know that anyone is secure. But I'm still worried... really really worried. I texted my coworker who is privy to some of what's going on and told him I'm stressin hard about the idea of being let go and he replied "You're not gonna lose your job"... but I don't know that he'd tell me if I was going to.
I'm stressing so hard I'm literally making myself sick. And I can't talk to my bf about it right this second because he's...well... working. So, I'm venting on my beautiful tPF people...
I know stressing about this doesn't do any good... that I need to focus on work and just make myself as valuable as possible. But damn I'm worried.
/vent
Technically, I am "upper management", but am not privy to any of the consolidation info... at all. I know nothing other than what everyone else knows... and I'm STRESSIN...
1. I was one of the last hired (that whole last hired first fired keeps running through my mind)
2. We are insanely slow. My workload is nothing like it should be, but I'm doing what I can to make sure I stay busy (and LOOK busy)
3. I'm a single mom and there's no way I can make it on UI
4. I'm going thru cancer treatment. It has not affected my work schedule or performance, but I'm worried I could be viewed as expendable because I'm not "healthy" (against the law, yes, but only if thats ever brought up, which it wouldn't be)
5. Because of reason #4 I cannot lose health benefits... and I won't be able to afford Cobra.
Our 'operations manager' was in my supervisor's office earlier today... and when he left she was in tears. Now mind you, she was just hired a few months ago... so I don't know if she may be let go or what she would be crying for. She and I are not *close*, but she knows and understands my medical situation... so now I have myself convinced that maybe she was just told I was going to be laid off... I dunno...
Realistically I know I am probably safe... for now. If we pick up some work, then I'm pretty secure. If we don't, I don't know that anyone is secure. But I'm still worried... really really worried. I texted my coworker who is privy to some of what's going on and told him I'm stressin hard about the idea of being let go and he replied "You're not gonna lose your job"... but I don't know that he'd tell me if I was going to.
I'm stressing so hard I'm literally making myself sick. And I can't talk to my bf about it right this second because he's...well... working. So, I'm venting on my beautiful tPF people...
I know stressing about this doesn't do any good... that I need to focus on work and just make myself as valuable as possible. But damn I'm worried.
/vent