hi all, I've been lurking over here for a while. I'm currently 5'5 and about 150 (fluctuates a couple pounds above or below depending on day/time,. etc.). I carry it somewhat well....but I've got big thighs, the tummy pooch, and big upper arms. I just also feel lazy and fat. I stare at myself in the shower and groan. I don't "need" to be skinny or anything and don't have an "ideal" weight...rather I would just like to be toned, in shape and healthy. I have horrible eating habits. In a typical day I'll drink around 6-8 cans of Coke. Usually a Coke for breakfast, maybe a couple slices of toast or a granola bar...I mostly skip lunch and just drink coke. For dinner it is sometimes a bag of potato chips (if I don't feel like cooking) & coke. I eat after 7 PM...usually more coke & chips. It's awful...I know! I know Coke is bad, I know about carbs and sugars and starches. It sucks! The thing is...my hubby is very overweight and happy with himself. My brother-in-law lives with us and he had gastric bypass surgery 1/5 years ago and he's starting to put back on the weight because he doesn't eat healthy or exercise. I can't get anyone in my house to eat healthy (even though hubby has diabetes)...and I can't force them to do it...they're adults and they'll go to grocery store and buy chips. My brother-in-law constantly brings home bad food and I usually throw it away. I couldn't get my husband to exercise if his life depended on it. All my weight gain has been since I was married (in almost 7 years I've gone from 118 to 150....I know I'm getting older - from 21 to 28 now- and some of it is metabolism BUT not all of it). I just feel in a rut. I love spending time with hubby and he likes me the way I am ...but I don't. I love coke and kinda sorta don't want to give it up entirely....I spent $300 on new jeans recently....if I lose weight they won't fit...all stupid excuses for not starting something. Why is it so hard to get motivated!!??!! How did you start a healthy lifestyle and get/stay motivated?? Sorry for the long ramble...just frustrated!