Thanks everyone for your input. It does sound like after the first year, it gets better. I have to be fully prepared to be stressed out this year, then? haha. I know fun will come with it as well. Once I have a routine established with making lesson plans and what materials I'm using, I will feel more comfortable (knowing my personality). I'm used to knowing what to expect- like going back to college each year at this time, knowing the routine. This is a new routine with a whole new group of people- colleagues and students to which I am not yet accustomed. It's scary as heck (and SOOO exciting!!!!!! lol). I remind myself that I am blessed to have a job, since lots of my friends are still searching. Sometimes, I also feel really scared and like I'm too young to be teaching, I still feel like a kid! But I'm NOT. It's a very strange time in one's life, 22! I feel in my heart that once the school year begins, I'm going to morph into the teacher I've always wanted to be, and it will come naturally
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Here is my list of things I need to rant about to get them off my chest, because if I write another list on a post-it note, I'm done:
*learning the school procedures, the block schedule, when their marking periods are, how to do grades online on their g*d forsaken confusing as anything grading system, making sure I can use the copier when I go to it, knowing that my overhead projector will actually work, knowing that eventually my overhead screen WILL stay down after it's fixed, lol, eventually getting the materials the school "promised" to new teachers (stapler, paper, pencils, anyone?? I've already spent WELL over $200 on supplies alone, not to mention all of the $$ it costs for certifications, new teacher paperwork/money orders, mentor cost, new clothes so that I'm "professional" even though there's no way I can be professional at 22 according to my mentor, ugh), working with an in-class support teacher who doesn't know Spanish, dealing with a mentor who teaching according to traditional SLA methods while I teach modern SLA, broken desks, not yet being familiar with the curriculum and resources that I have, knowing that I can show PP presentations on the tv from the computer (yayy!!
) except I'm fearful that the wires are broken/do not reach the plug (the teacher there before me never used the tv screen), not having the right materials I need to make my classroom function, not knowing what level these kids will be at and going too fast for some/too slow for others, them not wanting to do TPR & act silly, turning in lesson plans in the proper amount of time to my Supervisor when I'm clearly up each night before figuring out what I'm doing and makign copies at 6am at school, lol, parents emailing me, and the #1 fear- my mentor, who calls me her "protege," that she's made every mentor-ee cry that she's had, she wants to leave her legacy behind with me, curses like a sailor, and says I'm too "Polyanna" to know how to manage kids. Oh, and that "all of these kids are idiots, they don't know sh*t" - critiquing everything and everything I say I want to do, the methods I believe in, doesn't know what Becker's (the teacher store in town) is nor FLENJ (the Foreign Lang. organization for teachers in my STATE), but somehow believing that I WILL get through the first year, even with her, and eventually become the teacher I want to be, and a good one, too ....
k! I'm done! BREATHE!!!!!!
Thanks for letting me vent!
LivinLuxuriously- umm you are amazing, lol. I cry even when I WATCH the Teach For America videos with students who lack basic life necessities- I can't even IMAGINE thinking I would go in and teach them Spanish when they are lacking love, food and shelter. Kudos to you for all of your hard work & passion. For your question about Student Teaching, here is my story:
I graduated in May, too, with a B.A. double major in English and in Spanish. I'm certified (NJ Certif. of Eligibility) to teach both, and am doing the Alternate Route (so I still took the Praxis for both, the OPI, have degrees in my content area(s), Methods of Teaching course, etc). My first year of teaching, I have to attend a once-a-week night course at my community college for the Alternate Route and will get my Standard License
So, no, I haven't student taught, which is part of my worry, I think. I did this route so that I could teach both subjects (I love them both, but have always wanted to teach, so this way, I can do either but still graduated in 4 yrs). It's just where my path has lead me while I'm figured life out as I go along
I DID, however, teach something called "Conversation Hour" at my college for 3 years for Spanish 102- a few classes hourly classes, 1x a week, that was a co-requisite for students' normal Spanish 101,102, & 103 classes, where I facilitated conversation, basically, with activities I made up (all in Spanish, of course!).
Really - I'll let you all know how it goes after the first few days, few weeks, and when I finally feel like I have my life back again, lol.
Good luck to everyone else with school starting, too!!!!!!!
Last thing - everyone is telling me to read Harry Wong's
The First Days of School. I am so excited bc I found our the new teachers in my district are getting this book in our mailboxes soon!!! But not in time for the first day! lol. hmmm.