Disclaimer: These are only my thoughts about what's happened to me, not a judgment on anyone else. I genuinely hope I do not offend anyone else and I certainly do not think everyone should or does agree with me. Do you ever look around and think, "What is all this junk?" I have seriously run head-first into this realization lately... Honestly, I look in my closet every morning and see so many expensive clothes/bags that I thought would be "so worth it" and that I would "wear forever" and that I thought were "investment pieces," but that never turns out to be the case (for me). And now whenever I see all these clothes/bags/furniture/whatever that I thought were just so great, I just feel DUMB. I feel incredibly stupid that I bought into this consumer dream that I could somehow buy the person I want to be. Sometimes I just feel like a fool taken by the marketing machine that has made it a norm for young women like me, no matter what their salary, to wear $200 designer jeans and buy $4 lattes? ALL my friends are like this and I just wonder when we decided that this was a standard of life, that we are entitled to and cannot live without Rock & Republic denim and Starbucks. I'm NOT saying that there's anything wrong with all this if you can afford it. But "afford" means different things to different people... for some, an item is "affordable" if they can actually pay cash for it even if it means they'll be broke until their next paycheck, for others "affordable" means something they can pay off in a few credit card billing cycles, and for yet others, "affordable" are the fiscally-sensible items, which does not include luxuries like Chanel bags. I am really not sure what "afford" means for me anymore since half the time, I'm spending my boyfriend's money, or parents' gift-money, and I barely can tell what my salary will cover now that I'm dipped into other people's money pool. Can I "afford" all these things if I can't buy a condo in a couple years? I really have no idea what "affordable" means anymore, because somehow, a $1,000 purse seems like a bargain to me. Anyway, I didn't mean for this post to be about money because it's not really... hence why I posted it in General Discussion. It's about realizing that I haven't really ended up with anything I actually want. I'm going to try to learn my lesson rather than continually buying and dumping which is a terrible cycle. Sorry, I really hope I don't sound hypocritical or even more dumb than I already feel. Thanks for hearing me out. Anyone else feel this way?