my ex sent me an email about a week ago (we broke up 2.5 months ago) and told me the reason he cheated on me was because i was fat and ugly. while he may have just said it out of anger (i walked out on him), it still stung and really broke my spirit. i was really sick last year and put on a bunch of weight because of so many hospital visits and meds. he knew that was the reason and that i was incredibly sensitive about it. so if he wanted to play dirty, he knew this was the way to do it. BUT, i've decided that i am going to lose weight, be successful, be happy, without him. i don't need that negative energy around me. one day, i'll find a guy who loves me, imperfections and all. so tonight was the first night of my new life. i jogged around my neighborhood, which is a HUGE deal because i'm a wimp when it comes to running/jogging. it's gonna be hard, but totally worth it. i want to be happy in my own skin again, you know? so, here's to losing weight and learning to love myself again.