Gals, I am going to be promoted fairly soon. Which is great, etc., but I'm not actually all that motivated or ambitious. I was once, but the hard realities of office politics in my last job meant I had a bit of a breakdown two or three years ago, which changed me somewhat fundamentally. I was considered gifted at school and everyone had high, high hopes for me. I graduated summa cum laude, was promoted quickly, etc. But I don't care. I JUST DON'T CARE. I sit in meetings while people are arguing about minutiae thinking "well we are all going to die and none of this is going to matter. for real." (And what makes it worse is I work for a really progressive, we-make-the-world-a-better-place company this is about as meaningful work as I could ever find.) However, obviously my superiors see "potential" in me. Which is nice. But I'm finding it hard to work up much enthusiasm about taking on more responsibility (ie. the main thing that's going to be expected of me... project management, proactivity, great new ideas, being full of solutions at meetings... whereas atm, I mostly doodle in my notebook and let everyone else argue till they make a decision. I don't care what the decision is. Experience has taught me that making a decision is actually the main thing...everything else flows from there.) Like, once my supervisor asked me what motivated me. I said "Money. And having nice colleagues who like to go for drinks after work." She kind of laughed in a shocked way, but I just thought, "jeez I can't muster up a lie anymore. I really can't." But I also know companies dont like that attitude. I would be seen as dead weight, resistant to development, and if/when layoffs happen, the first to go is the person whos been in a more junior position for several years and is costing the company wayyyy more than a recent grad would. So I need to change it up, somehow. Career-minded gals, can you recommend any resources, books in particular, that may somehow help? I am having a one-to-one with my superior soon . She is going to want to know how Im going to rise to the occasion. I have to think of something, I have to have some kind of game face .Supervisor is HIGHLY ambitious and a star achiever in the company, and she expects the exact same attitude from me. I can't stop working for at least the next few years, and my goal is to build up enough cred to be able to work remotely within the next five years. So I do have goals, I guess. They just have to do with making my life easier, not accomplishing some grand endeavor. Help?? How do I fake it so I make it?