I feel like a bad person. How is it possible to feel two distinctly different emotions at the same time? I am over the moon for my dear friend, who had her second child today. Popped by the hospital to see her and her newborn daughter and husband. They now have two under age two. My friend is the same age I am (38). The baby is beautiful, and they are all doing well. But I left feeling blue. My husband and I learned in 2006 that we could not conceive because I am in menopause. Yes, menopause... and had been for at least four years (since age 34, they think)! We adopted... and have a beautiful son. He's 15 months old and the light of my life. But I still feel blue today after visiting my friend. I feel so selfish for saying that. But somehow just knowing that others are able to get pregnant and have children so easily sometimes makes me feel like less of a woman. Does that make ANY sense? I guess maybe I feel cheated that I didn't get to have the "whole" experience by being pregnant and delivering a child myself. I am still a mom and my son is every bit as much my own as if I had carried and delivered him myself. But somehow, looking at my friend there in the hospital bed breastfeeding, I couldn't help feeling a bit... jealous, maybe? No, not jealous. Sad? What's the word/emotion... I have no idea. Okay. That's it. Just had to get that out. If anyone out there identifies, would love to hear from you. I can't be the only one. Off to get my son up from his nap and see that big smile that melts my heart!