Okay, so its a long story, but I've had an eating disorder for about two months now, and I feel so bad about it. No one knows, I am so sick of letting the food take control over me. I just had 20 sandwiches with butter & jam, and I'm crying so hard right now. I don't want to be like this, I want to live properly. I don't know what to tell my mom, please help, I'm just feeling so.. down and helpless. Maybe I should mention I'm not bulimic, I have more like a BED / Anorexia it varies.