Yes, I am. I already ranted on my own blog, but right now I just have no other way of making/keeping my peace. My last relationship -- as in, before this current one -- lasted 2 years and 15 days. He broke up with me in September 2004, because I was here and he was all the way back in Malaysia . Yes, it was a long-distance thing; very long distance. We still kept in touch and talked online everyday, because we both knew that we still loved each other very much. Then in September 2005, I met the man whom I'm with now, and when my ex found out about him in December -- through my mother -- he took it rather well, although at that time he told me he still had feelings for me. We started to talk less, because he was afraid my boyfriend being around -- although my boyfriend really didn't mind me talking to my ex, "as long as I knew what I was saying." And just yesterday, I found out that my ex now has a new girlfriend. He's 23 and she's 20, two years younger than I am. And ladies (and gentlemen, if any), I will not lie, I think my heart almost stopped when I found out. I don't know why; every feeling I'd ever had suddenly came rushing back to me, and I wanted to throw something out the window :censor:. Don't get me wrong; I love my current boyfriend a lot, but given the length of our relationship thus far, it might be safe to say that my ex was the great love of my life, and although our relationship had been a rocky one (he was extremely possessive and controlling) and I don't think I'd go back into it again, is it normal for someone to feel the way I do now :cry:? I'm clearly going to hell.