All of it.. I am giving up the snacking and overeating and fast food and the late night munching and the soda..the diet coke has got to go. I am giving up the sweets, the alcohol and all the crap that I shove in my face knowing good and well that I should not be eating it and that it is the reason why I feel like crap. I am just giving it all up... I am replacing it with water...water...water and lots of it. Good choices. Whole grains. No more than 1200 calories a day. I am going to eat more fruit, more veggies and the things that I should be. I am sick and tired of being fat! I am a mother of 3 boys. I should be healthy because I want to stick around and be healthy for them. I need to set a good example. I know that I can do this... So this is the deal: I am fat. I am 5'3 and was 172 pounds to start. I put my fat ass on a diet starting 1/5/08. I had enough. I promised myself that I would keep my daily calorie intake to be around 1200 calories. I just got back from the doctors today and have so far dropped my weight down to 166 since Saturday so that is a start and my journey to a new me has begun. My husband is not being very supportive of me and my decision. He keeps bringing fast food around me and eating it in front of me and asking if I want some. When I tell him that I dont want it, he says that I used to be fun when I could eat with him and now I am getting crazy and I am going to turn into a "skinny *****" This bothers me but I am not doing this for him, I am doing this for me. My father said to me.."Heather, you are fat and you need to lose some weight before I wire your jaw shut so you cannot say you are my daughter." Whatever... My sister said to me, "why do you all of a sudden care about your weight now? You know I am the sexier sister anyways. I took that title from you long ago." Fine..think that... I am just fed up. I want this so badly, but I am the most unmotivated person on the planet and usually cannot stick to anything longer than a few days. But something is different this time. I can feel it. I think that I finally had enough and am ready to just do this. Something is going to change... My goal: I have a cruise to the Caribbean on August 16th of this year. I absolutely refuse to go on this cruise fat. I am young. I am 25. I should be ready to get all dolled up and look fabulous on this cruise. This is my reward. I am on a mission to get down to 120 before I leave on this cruise. I want to buy a bathing suit. I want to buy a pretty dress. I want to look great and make heads turn. I want to take pictures and have memories from this cruise. I went on a cruise last year and did not even bring a bathing suit with me. I didnt bring a dress with me and I ran as fast as I could from the camera everytime it was pointed at me. Do you know that I do not have one single picture of myself on that cruise? My kids came with me and I should have taken pictures, but I didnt. I dont have one.single.picture. That is sad.... So this is my goal..I am going to get in shape and lose weight and look fabulous. I am going to lose at least 50 pounds by August. I am going to do it..I know I can and I dont care if anyone supports me or not. I have spent forever taking care of everyone else...this time I am taking care of ME. And when I do hit that goal I am buying myself the most fabulous purse ever to take with me on that cruise and post tons of pictures to all my friends at tPF to show you how I did it.