i used to have the urge of wanting more and more bags before in my previous relationship... i don't really understand why, we were happy, we lived and worked together and i made my own money by doing a side job that i did alone and there's where i spend the money for bags.
i seem to never satisfied with what i had, i always wanted more and more.
but after we broke up (the issue we broken up is not because of money or handbags btw, it's because of a 3rd person from his side), i felt no passion for those bags, i realized that those are just materials and i want my relationship more than a new handbag.
no handbag can cure my sadness.
and now i'm having a new relationship and i'm pretty content. i love him and i don't really feel the need of having or purchasing something new or fancy to make me "happy" which i also just realized about the buing and buying issue in my prev. relationship.
i wasn't really happy before, and i need a "fix" on my life, to fill the emotions and i got that from purchasing handbags. weird maybe but it's true.
now i only buy what i really want and need, i even sold some of the bags i don't really use to make myself more and more financially stable.
my new bf have no issue with me buying bags, but i felt guilty just to look at how much money is there on those bags piling up.
i told him i'm selling some of my bags, and he said he never asked me to sell anything, i said yeah, but i want to let go some of the things i don't need.
i want to be more "light-weight"
i don't want to have too many things.
about desire, of course i still have desire for more and more bags. it's very human. but i try to control myself more.
now when i want to have something new, i lose something old.
the point of my long thread is
do u really happy with your life now?
are u happy with ur husband?
do u really LOVE him? do u feel ur children are a burden to u?
because i see that u're still very young and it's very understandable to feel caged or prisoned in what life u're living now.
and maybe, ur shopping habits comes from the "unhapiness" inside you.
and u need that fix to make u feel happy.