She is not a powerseller, just a seller with all positive feedbacks. She said she cannot accept credit card due to she in in UK. Anyway, I am so stupid, I am just the dammest person in the world, now I hate myself so much, I should just die.
Not sure why you think you can't find the seller's contact info, have you tried entering their ebay name into this search on ebay?
http://search.ebay.com/ws/search/Ad...sop=1&fsoo=1&fcl=3&frpp=50&sofindtype=9&pfid=
It should provide full address and phone number. If the address does not match the address that is confirmed on invoice that the seller sent you, you can definitely win a dispute via paypal or ebay. You should file an item not received dispute immediately.