i love the responses i'm getting! sometimes i think i'm the only one that goes through this stuff...anyway, i have to keep this deal...over the years dh has been really patient with me and i've made all kinds of deals and broken them...this year, however, i have to keep the deal...it's also not like i don't have any other bags...in the past 4 months i've gotten a gustto, a bulga, a hayden harnett and a kooba...so, all told, it's not like i'm deprived...i think it's just the feeling of being "shut off" that makes me feel, hmm...anxiety is it??!?!?