I'm aware that this post is likely to sound completely childish, but I'm upset. Maybe it's because it's late and all - I dunno. I usually try and ignore these things, but now it's really getting to me.
I haven't lost much of the babyweight yet (I gained over 60 lbs). So far, I've lost maybe around 10 - so not all that much. So today we have a big party going on in my town, and I went with Bart and my mom and the baby at around 9pm to find my aunt and uncle so we could sit with them. Now, I'll preface this by saying that I'm a bigger girl - always have been and always will be.
So as we were walking through, I noticed this group of teenagers sitting at a table drinking a few beers (perfectly normal here). All of a sudden one of them points to me, all of them turn around and look. A few laugh/snicker and when I walk by, one whistles. It's not the first time that this has happened to me by a group of non-goal-oriented hostile youth groups who do nothing but sit around and drink all day (I'm familiar with this group of kids), but it still hurts my feelings to know that people are making fun of me.
...I've tried hard to lose the baby weight. We go on a walk everyday when it's not raining and I've been trying to keep up with my Callanetics, even though I don't have much time at home to do that anymore.
I feel like such a little girl sitting here and being upset about it. Maybe it's that gaining 60 lbs throughout my pregnancy really changed the way I thought about my body (I was never very confident, but being 60 lbs heavier made me feel like a big fat whale). I dunno, I just feel so sad now. I don't want people to notice me...I don't want them to look at me and think "Wow...
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I just wish I could get the rest of this baby weight off so I can get my body as back to normal as it will possibly get. I know it will never be the same, but I'd at least like to be able to wear my regular non-maternity clothes again and not look like I'm still pregnant
I haven't lost much of the babyweight yet (I gained over 60 lbs). So far, I've lost maybe around 10 - so not all that much. So today we have a big party going on in my town, and I went with Bart and my mom and the baby at around 9pm to find my aunt and uncle so we could sit with them. Now, I'll preface this by saying that I'm a bigger girl - always have been and always will be.
So as we were walking through, I noticed this group of teenagers sitting at a table drinking a few beers (perfectly normal here). All of a sudden one of them points to me, all of them turn around and look. A few laugh/snicker and when I walk by, one whistles. It's not the first time that this has happened to me by a group of non-goal-oriented hostile youth groups who do nothing but sit around and drink all day (I'm familiar with this group of kids), but it still hurts my feelings to know that people are making fun of me.
...I've tried hard to lose the baby weight. We go on a walk everyday when it's not raining and I've been trying to keep up with my Callanetics, even though I don't have much time at home to do that anymore.
I feel like such a little girl sitting here and being upset about it. Maybe it's that gaining 60 lbs throughout my pregnancy really changed the way I thought about my body (I was never very confident, but being 60 lbs heavier made me feel like a big fat whale). I dunno, I just feel so sad now. I don't want people to notice me...I don't want them to look at me and think "Wow...
"I just wish I could get the rest of this baby weight off so I can get my body as back to normal as it will possibly get. I know it will never be the same, but I'd at least like to be able to wear my regular non-maternity clothes again and not look like I'm still pregnant
! You just gave birth for God's sake!! You just went through the most magical experience ever. Screw them!! They are losers, losers, losers. You are a great person and don't let strangers diminish your wonderful spirit.
