Apologies in advance for the novel, but there's a lot on my mind. It seems this Dorothy is back in the cyclone, but perhaps I'll land in Oz this time. There's a good many of you that know of my (now 14 month) long saga, but here's the last thread I started. I'm too lazy to type it all over again. :shame: http://forum.purseblog.com/health-and-fitness/i-need-my-tpf-support-group-132218.html Fast forward through months of pain, procedures and pills to last week, when I have a repeat MRI done. I got the results on Monday: the disk has herniated again MUCH WORSE than before. Frankly I don't think it was ever repaired to begin with, but that's an aside. My pain management MD has referred me to a top notch neurosurgeon and I have my first appointment January 3. I hate to have to wait so long, but with this disk looking like it does (I have the MRI films-ick!), I may end up in the hospital before then. At any rate, surgery will be a given but I won't know how involved it will be until then I see the surgeon on January 3. The funny thing about finding out this news was that I AM HAPPY!!! Happy to have surgery again? Nope. Happy to finally find out there IS a reason I've been in screaming pain for the 13 months since the surgery, with precious little relief. My pain management doctor had used up everything in his bag of tricks and nothing worked or if it did, never lasted very long. Not one single pill he prescribed either worked or came without side effects for me. When I had the MRI, my biggest fear was it would come back unchanged from the last one in March, so believe it or not, finding not the disk ballooning out was the best news I could get. I'm dreading surgery, of course. I'm really upset about the fact that because of what I've been through, I've had to use up my leave every month, so I have NO leave time, meaning it's leave without pay from day one. Scary if a really involved procedure is deemed necessary. But the bottom line is I FINALLY have some hope to hang my hat on. That's something I'd long since run out of, so who needs money?