jill -sorry for your trouble. hope you will feel better soon. please tell me if I should start a new thread. didn't want to duplicate ... has anyone done the opposite - go smaller? is it really as extreme as everyone says? (scarring, pain, etc) I know you can't nurse. does it look out of proportion to the rest of your body? also, that may be a dumb question but: is there any other way to deal with the 'sag' effects of nursing, than implants? as for self-esteem: I know someone in the family who had a ba (went smaller) bec she just couldn't handle all the attention. this was in her teens (one of my family's open secrets so can't ask her...) and she changed from a mouse in hiding to a stunning, self-assured and out-going young woman. this is not just bec she went out of her teens - you can't imagine what some people can do to your self-esteem, especially the unwanted male comments and staring can just be too much when you don't know where these suddenly came from in the first place... . mind you, she really had 'massive' size issues.... in her case there was psychological assessment so that health care provision would pay for it (and they did). but I don't see why only pregnancy and cancer give you a good reason.