Sorry I just need to vent. Over the course of last night over to today a total of four people have completely misunderstood what I was trying to say. Last night it was on the relationships forum and I can completely understand how he/she took my words out of context, so i'm not blaming him/her in any way. But today, I took my dog out for a walk in the morning, bumped into a neighbour and we started talking. He asked me why do I like having a pet, as in what sort of joy I get out of it, and I didn't quite know how to explain that. What I was trying to say was I am happy to give an animal a home, but I think what he thought I was trying to say was that I like the idea of dominance and I look down on things? Either way, it was completely not what I said, and he got so angry at me, and I walked home feeling very crestfallen.
Then I went to the shopping centre and an elderly woman asked me how I was finding Australia, so on so forth because I'm asian. I said I like it here, it's peaceful and different from Taiwan, where I was born, but I miss some aspects of Taiwan. She got horribly angry at me, telling me to go back if I don't like it here completely!
I don't know... i've never had so many people take what I say in ways that are completely contrary to what I was trying to say. English isn't my first language, and i've always been proud of the fact that I can speak this language fluently, but now i'm not so sure. I've started picking out all my grammar mistakes, going very hard on myself when I accidentally say the wrong word... I don't know how I can let people know what I really mean anymore. There is absolutely nothing good about my English if no one knows what I'm saying.
I'm sorry... I just feel very down.
Then I went to the shopping centre and an elderly woman asked me how I was finding Australia, so on so forth because I'm asian. I said I like it here, it's peaceful and different from Taiwan, where I was born, but I miss some aspects of Taiwan. She got horribly angry at me, telling me to go back if I don't like it here completely!
I don't know... i've never had so many people take what I say in ways that are completely contrary to what I was trying to say. English isn't my first language, and i've always been proud of the fact that I can speak this language fluently, but now i'm not so sure. I've started picking out all my grammar mistakes, going very hard on myself when I accidentally say the wrong word... I don't know how I can let people know what I really mean anymore. There is absolutely nothing good about my English if no one knows what I'm saying.
I'm sorry... I just feel very down.