Sorry about this message and please ignore it but I have to let this out and tell someone somewhere otherwise the pressure is going to build up inside me and I'm going to crack which is going to lead me to do extremely crazy things. I am stressing out like hell and I am in such deep trouble. Tomorrow, I am about to realise a big fat -$2,000,000 for the bank's proprietary account with a single day trade. I have made a serious blunder on my Eurodollar spread strategy in relation to the Federal rate forward curve and I have exactly 13 days and 24 minutes to hide and normalise my book. The leverage have made it worse and the multilayer tranching has made the matter even worse and the market is killing me for it. I have completely misanticipated the interest rate future pricing. You do not know how completely screwed I am. I have never made a loss in my life but now I am in line for the most sadomasochistic treatment on my bum in my sad life ever. Now I am going to dig into all my savings account and get a margin to gear it up and reverse this position. Thanks for letting me share here because just allowing me to do so you've made me slightly more sane; I appreciate it.