Hi Ladies! Just wanted to say hello... haven't been around too much, and I think I'm still a bit in denial that we're TTC. The past 2 cycles I've started the ovulation tests and have never had a positive. The first month (I use the term "month" very loosely since my cycles are longer than a month) I was too lazy and gave up after a few tests of negatives. The second month I was diligent in using up all 10 tests in a box (since we were on vacation and I didn't have any distractions), but still, all negative. AF came a few days after our trip and, counting back 12 days, realized that I probably ovulated the day before we left for our trip. I laugh when I think that I'm so irregular that I can't even guess my ovulation date within a 10 day window! I started testing again 2 days ago, and that was kick-started not by my own motivation, but because my SIL gave me her extra tests (she's due in 2 weeks!). As a side note, I just startd another post about a faint 2nd line for these tests...) Sometimes I think I'm being lazy about testing because I'm afraid to face any difficulties that might come up when TTC. In my head, I'm probably protecting myself emotionally by never really giving this a good shot - because, what if we gave it our all, and it still wasn't good enough to make it happen? On top of that, I'm pretty sure DH and our sex drives aren't all that healthy... and that worries me, too. Sometimes I wish I was diagnosed with a 'condition' so I can use that as my excuse as to why we can't conceive... and that would be a clear 'go-ahead' so we can start the adoption process (or something). I think I'm totally pysching myself out about this and prematurely anticipating issues. I think I have a mental block. Not sure what to do! Maybe venting will help! Thanks for reading... P.S. If you can't tell already, I'm super emotional right now - maybe AF is on it's way. How ironic would that be? P.P.S. Is there a central location where the acryonyms used for the topic of TTC are listed? I figured out AF (aunt flow) and HPT (home pregnancy test), but that's about it... thank you!