Let me start from the beginning ... As some of you know, I'm having some serious issues with work. They've doubled my workload while refusing to give me a raise or a promotion (this is the SECOND time they pulled this crap on me) and there had been serious politics and backstabbing going on (I just mind my own business but apparently that only attracted more problems). I also recently injured my shoulder because of the extra responsibility that I took on (I'm a financial analyst, I'm NOT supposed to be carrying 50 lb boxes). With the finance industry not doing well, all the important people at my company were in a crappy mood everyday. Everyone was under the gun so some slackers finally started to feel the pressure of having to actually WORK for a change. Of course, these people complained and WHINED about how much work they have. Earlier this week, one of the big bosses told me that I would be assigned a new project because his secretary was "too swamped" to do it. WTH? So now I'm a secretary too? I don't mind the extra work except this is one of those projects that will take away lots of time because I have to hound people to get things to be by deadlines - and I KNOW ppl won't do it because I'm on their backburners. When things don't get done, it'd be my fault even though it was those other ppl who hadn't responded. In addition, one of the temps was leaving and my boss called me into his office. The temp's boss (who also reports to my boss) was also there. They told me that I would be taking over this temp's work. At this point, I had enough and I spoke up. I said I was concerned that I would be swamped and that I would fall behind. I also told them that while I like to take on challenges, I do not want things to fall through the cracks. Furthermore, I told them that I felt that we need to establish a process and standard procedures because the lack of process and organization was what was causing a lot of these issues in the department. Guess what my boss said? He said he couldn't imagine WHY I have that much to do. He said he didn't think I have much to do and that I just need to prioritize. WHAT.THE.F*CK?!!!! I was already falling behind AND i've started to make mistakes in MY work because I had to do stuff for everybody else. And here I was being told I don't have enough to do? Bloody hell!! I told my boss (in a polite and respectful way of course) that just because I actually get things done and am efficient doesn't mean that I have nothing to do!!!!! I'm so damn pissed!!!! I'm only holding onto this job because I do need to get paid. Also, if I quit my job then I don't have the health insurance, not to mention it will not look good on my resume. But f*ck!!! This makes me so pissed! You know, TWO years ago I used to LIKE coming to work! Now I am irritable and pissy whenever I started driving to work. Of course, I can't relax on the weekends either because I have my family to deal with. I'm surprised that I'm still standing ... I must have an inhuman tolerance to stress ... *sigh*. My company doesn't appreciate what I do. I am under-utilized and underpaid and I postponed my vacation for TWO months (and because of that, I MISSED my 4th Year Anniversary with my SO) because they needed my help at work. Did they appreciate what I do? Hell no! Gah!!! I can't really tell my family about it because they've been PUSHING me to get a job close to home for ages now and I absolutely refuse to, plus they're already displeased with the fact that I'm underpaid. I also cannot tell my SO because this would only give him more ammunition in telling me to DROP EVERYTHING and move to SG with him. Oh, that brought up something else ... My SO kind of gave me an ultimatum earlier last week. He was going through some changes at work and he needed me to be there for him. I told him I couldn't move without getting a DECENT job first (by decent, I mean equivalent to what I'm being paid here, since the benefits there are not as comprehensive as the U.S.). He just didn't get it. He felt I could get a job here LATER and that if I couldn't find something for ONE YEAR, then I can go back to the U.S.. I told him doing so will NOT be beneficial, not to mention I get paid MORE than him. Even I won't be able to forgive myself for doing something so STUPID ... So, I'm doubling my effort for a job hunt in SG with decent pay but am still not having much luck. I'm feeling pressure from every single direction. I really do feel stretched very thin and very overwhelmed. Anyways, I just want to rant a little bit since it is Friday night and I'm stressed out as hell.