Terribly sorry for the long post, but I have to let it out... :cry: My darling pomeranian passed this morning, it had been a long week. The week before she went through the doggy door to go outside to use the 'doggy facilities', the first door leads to the garage, n then there is a second dog door, going to the back yard. Coming in, she trips on a metal pipe, and spains her ankle. She was takin to the vet, and given medication, but they said with her age, she might not recover. I tried to battle that statistic, and feed her by the spoonfuls. yet the past two days, she wouldn't walk, nor eat willingly.Forcing food did no good, she wouldn't only cough it back up. I knew last night, she was leaving me. I was tired from the restless nights I had with her this past week. My mom came downstairs to hold her, she wasn't content about going to sleep. I go to sleep and pray for god to let her pass in her sleep. I woke up this morning, and find my dogs bed gone from the end of the hall. My mom comes in the room, and comes to me without a word, I knew what happened. (this afternoon, we took her to Safe Haven, a doggy cemetary) My prayer had been answered, regretfully, I wish I was able to say a proper goodbye. I had been selfish in my eyes, to go to sleep, knowing it probably was her last hours.I am gratefull she left us in her sleep. Knowing my mom was there holding on to her for safety. I just wish I was the one to be there for her. I know I did the best I could. She lived for a glorious 19 years.She put up with me as a tiny tot, toting her like a rag-doll. I think she only stayed around, until I graduated-until I entered adulthood, and I think she knew I had grown up. To me and my family she was more than a pet, she was my 'sister'. Being almost all blind/deaf, she still knew I was in the room. I just find it heartbreaking to have not spent her last night, by her side. I know she knows I loved her, and I know I have her the best life possible. It just hurts, to not know my angel won't be here by my side, but looking over me, from above instead.