died yesterday night in front of my eyes .. :cry: I was walking the dogs (I got a puppy yesterday), and my cats (I've got three but two are 1 year old brothers) always walk with me. Yesterday only one cat, Ivy, walked with me. The dogs and cat were playing in the grass and suddenly Ivy was walking on the road (he does that a lot, but normally he is really careful or cars will stop). Then I saw a car coming so I was screaming IVY IVY so loud, I saw him got thrown to the other side of the road, I immediately got there and he was still alive, he was stretching his legs and made some sounds. There was a girl who lives in my street, she saw how everything happened so she came to me immediately, she took my puppy because the dogs weren't calm cause they didn't know what happened. They called the police and they said they would send an ambulance right away.. after that I called my parents, my dad took the dogs home and we waited and waited for the ambulance, it never came. He was literally bleeding to death.. I was so angry with them, they probably thought 'oh whatever, it's just a cat'.. ugh. And I am so angry with myself. I was thinking maybe I should go to the dog park, but because the puppy was cold, I didn't want to walk around for that long. Thats why I took the other way which lies next to the road.. I don't know what it is, maybe it was just bad luck, or it should have been like this. Or maybe God didn't want me to have that puppy and he punished me with this. I'm so confused and I keep seeing how it all happened and thinking why it happened, I feel so sad. My mum have put him in a basket yesterday night and he slept next to me on my bed. The other cat, his brother stayed there the whole night, it was so sad... We are going to cremate him, we just brought him to the clinic and I can keep his ashes..