Well it's my birthday in less than four hours and I'm sitting here sniffling, eating chocolate and feeling sorry for myself. I feel like I've wasted my childhood. All my life I've been serious and exist only to work or study. If I could be 14 again I'd go to all those parties and have as many silly teenage romances as I could. I feel like I'm looking into a cavern and seeing nothing but impending maturity and boredom. I've been boring all my life and now that it's actually time to start thinking of the future (saving for a house etc) I'm freaking out because I haven't 'lived' enough for it to be different when I settle down! I find myself analyzing each potential man and asking myself "can I see myself with him in the longrun, what are his ambitions etc" and I absolutely hate it!! I see those high school kids in the city or on the train and I wish I could do things for the sake of fun not future. I wish I was 17 again so I could hook up with a cute guy who plays guitar and skip school to go shopping for the latest teenage trend but instead I'm surrounded by career minded mature guys and friends who talk about marriage. I know this is a trivial problem but it makes me feel bad If anyone's gone through something similar please give me some advice on dealing with my stupid quarter life crisis!