I hope this is the right place to post this thread. I think I have a confidence disorder (does that exist?) or something along that lines. Growing up as a child, I had a mother that constantly told me that I needed to lose weight or do this or that so I could look better. Needless to say, I was never the prettiest girl in elementary school. Middle school was no easy piece of cake either. It was like elementary school plus acne, 10 more pounds, and braces. However, sometime during the early years of high school I blossomed and all traces of the girl from middle school vanished. When I look at pictures from middle school it shocks me and I feel like I'm looking at a different person. I don't want to come off as proud or vain but I know that I look good (kwim?). But the problem is that sometimes I don't feel like I look good. I've always been an outgoing and vivacious person and I still am most of the time. I'm not the type of girl that is quiet or shy. I say what I want and do what I want. But when I get around a group of women it's as if all my personality gets sucked out of me and I become some timid, awkard girl. I don't have this problem around guys or just a few girls. It's always when I'm around a crowd of women that I lose all my confidence. And they don't have to be women I know, they can be random people in a clothing store. It's as if I'm not even myself and I hate feeling like that. The real me is inside and trying to get out and I'm trying to let me out but something is stopping me. I've been currently thinking of going to see a therapist or something along those lines since I've been like this for the past few years. But I would really like some advice from some of my fellow tPF'ers!