A year ago my father went to sleep and I am feeling an incredible sadness. He died December 14 last year and had been very ill, but somehow, that doesn't matter. Have tried to do the usual holiday thing, but can't get into it. My bf isn't that sympathetic, his own father died in March, and he has his own pain. It is not a constant thing, just little things from time to time. At least I was able to talk to him the night before he died. Purses, things, they don't replace people and never will. So, as you celebrate Chanukah, Christmas, Solstice, Kwanzaa, New Year, give thanks for them and give them a big hug. BTW, tpf people, you're great and I appreciate you. Thanks for listening. In peace.