Hi ALL!!! thank you so much for all your sweet words of advice and comfort about my last post and losing Smokey. I have much more of an honest idea of what happened now. I guess because his FLUTD was so serious they were treating that . . . but he also ended up having kidney failure. So they would give him lots and lots of fluids to help his kidneys but then he kept blocking over and over and his bladder would be on the verge of exploding. So they would stop the fluids to get him unblocked and his kidneys would nose dive. So it was like this war going on inside him . . . I still feel sick thinking about it. He was the coolest, sweetest cat ever and only 2. I went to my therapist today and she asked me about losing Boone at such a young age (my cat before that died) and I said that honestly . . .I didn't have a choice my parents made me get Smokey. I still ached for Boone and the first week I felt like such a trader but then my love for him helped me heal. Smokey became the best choice I ever made. So here I am again . . . right back to this painful aching where I want to "save a cat" (I would get an adult from a shelter since they don't always have as much chance) or thinking about it makes me feel like I am failing Smokey. Everyone says wait a while but I know me . . . if I am going to do it now might be the best time, or I might never do it. I guess I am just so much in pain over Smokey! He was two! My husband says NO MORE CATS He said he can't keep seeing me in this much pain. I was looking at the Maine Coon Rescue and found this http://search.petfinder.com/petnote/displaypet.cgi?petid=9248925 I swear it is his brother. They are identical and have the same personality according to the text. Is it werid to get a cat so similar to my sweet boy, Smokey? Is it werid to get a cat at all right now? I just feel like I have no one to ask besides you guys because my husband says no to any new pets period and I just feel everyone thinks it is crazy I am still this upset. Have you been in this situation?